Happy astrological new year

Happy Astrological New Year dearest!

First a gift:

Shedding the Skin Movement Meditation and Journaling

Finally, the warm rays of the sun are stroking us awake. The birds are harmonizing their gorgeous songs, and the daffodils are showing their beautiful, smiling faces. Reminding us that Ostara has arrived and the New Astrological Year, has started. The time has come to lean into this beautiful time of hope, of fertility and new beginnings.

These past wintery months have personally been a time of raw, unfiltered soul searching. I found myself, and sometimes still do, deep underground like a little seed. Feeling into the darkness, feeling into the warmth of the moist soil and all the support surrounding me, feeling into the fear of not knowing whether I will see the light. Slowly I feel myself emerging and it isn’t in the place where I envisioned myself to emerge many months ago.

It’s a strange thing, when seeing the light and new beginnings comes paired with deep waves of grief intertwined with intense clarity. I got an insight I didn’t necessarily want to see. Nevertheless, she showed me what IS. How do we keep moving in the flow of the life we have created when the clarity you receive is asking for change? 

You don’t.

The pulse of energy in tangible in the air. Our gorgeous Father Sun has been blessing us with its presence the last view days, and I feel my inner motor switch on. I feel the to do list grow in my head with little tasks that will make our house more beautiful, exciting ideas spark for my work and I feel the urge to go outside and walk barefoot in the grass and read my book under a big tree. To escape into the dreams that come with this beautiful, light, fertile Ostara energy. Where everything is possible and the flirtation with life is at its sweetest.

Oh and deep down I know I’ll do all those things. But not right now. For the clarity that has come through for me is first asking for change. Asking me to declutter my inner world and mind further than I knew possible. To create more space, so that I can have the time and space to do all of the above. She is asking me to shed my skin like a snake. It is uncomfortable, itchy, and oh so needed. For old patterns that resurface, old wounds that are being touched by new life experiences need tending to. I am being asked to support myself in a way I would one of you. With presence, love, a mirror and an open heart.

I would like to invite you to go stand in front of a mirror and truly look at yourself, your eyes, your face, your body.  Are you rushing into this new season still holding onto everything from our winter months? Have you taken the time to sink into your body, your being and listened to what needs tending to before you can truly step into the Ostara energy?

When you see what you truly need in this moment, I invite you to make the changes so that you can start this new year in a way that truly supports you.

Ritual, movement and intention has always been my way of moving through stagnant parts and inviting change into my life.  I do this at home by myself and I ask help from professionals. Being someone who loves to work through everything herself (yes, aware and growing!) I have opened my space more and more to let help in. Friends and family are an amazing safety net and in that regard I have an incredible network, and I need more.

My more consists of courses I take with people who inspire me and invite me to dive deeper into my psyche, the retreats I go to, the women circle I attend, the body work I receive and the psychologist I speak to. We live in a world where slowing down is seen as failing, where being productive is all that counts. And even though I know this is not the truth or how I want to live my life, the conditioning and deep wired patterns of generations coursing through my cells is still struggling with this;  struggling with the reprogramming/ reconditioning/ rewiring/ restructuring/ (un)spiraling/ re ??

Right now, my life is asking me to slow down more and more, to create space to allow my cells to navigate back to their original blueprint. My original blueprint looks a bit like lying naked by a river and eating fresh figs, dancing around a fire and cooking for my loved ones. Exhale. Why did we ever move away from that?

My wish for you this new year is that you may feel into this fresh, inspiring Ostara energy and not jump into production mode. May you use this energy to tap into what you need individually and what we need as a collective. May we take responsibility for our own thoughts, our action and what has come to the surface after these long winter months. May we use it to shed our winter skin, release all the stagnant winter energy and truly step into this new year with a clear intention and an open heart. May we take the time to plant the seeds instead of jumping ahead to pick the flowers.

Let’s take the time to warm ourselves up gently, lying naked on the rocks in our new skins, re- membering our true blueprint, sharing looks filled with deep knowing, respect, understanding. From this space we can start the dance and flirtation with all the possibilities of this beautiful new year ahead of us.

I have created a meditation/ movement practice that invites you to sink into your body, to help release stagnant energy, and some journal prompts that hopefully guide you into some clarity.

Shedding the Skin Movement Meditation and Journaling

As always, I would love to hear from you. Your thoughts or musings that arise.

With love always,

Anna